Anger,Hatred and Pain

I'm not really sure whether I'm doing the right thing.I know clearly I'm taking the risk.I'm telling myself that I should let this friendship go,I should forget about you.But there is something holding me back real hard!!Friends adviced me to let it go and some even said I should forgive you.I know everyone deserves a second chance but the pain is just too REAL.I'm trying to get my mind right now.You were right about one thing.I don't know shit about love.Anger and hatred clouded my mind.I felt that I'm the one who caused all these problems in your life.I wasn't there for you when you needed me.But I never regret when we were in relationship.I love you more than anyone else.I won't let our relationship slip away if it wasn't my dad.I'm sorry I broke your fragile heart.The reason I'm asking you to let this friendship go is because I felt DIGUSTED for the things I done to you.I'm sorry.It's not your fault