Love The Way You Lie

Wo La La

Its been weeks I did not blog. Well, a lot shit happened recently...hmm, I guess I have to list out??NO I ain't gonna flaunt my problems out!!...okay maybe a little..=D

Yup I broke up. I didn't give up. I never thought of giving up. I never did. Things just didn't go the way I expected.Seriously, guys don't put the blame on her entirely,aight??. Things happened real fast for us..I was high of love and I took it to the air. I knew I was rushing things and I just...fuckin risk it!!

BUT NOW!!!!I'M BACK ON MY FEET PEOPLE!!!=D...THANKS TO BECK,TINEE,KENN,YESHUA,ARIEL,ALBERT PAN,JJ AND ZENNNN....YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME!!!...xDxD...oh yeah,kenn....I hope you're alright okay??Don't cry because its over,smile because it happened..=)...I'm always for you bro!!ALWAYS!!!..=D

Don't worry too much aight?? I'm fine and thanks for being there for me...I seriously gonna cry...NO WAIT!! I ain't gonna cry...I'm gonna hug you guys...xDXD

Being Speechless and Paranoid

Am I too over protective??or just being an asshole??Or it could be I'm being paranoid

I'm always worried for you.I really really love you with all my heart!!

I'm scared of losing you!!I really do!!

Is It Not Enough??

I'M TRYING MY BEST TO BE PERFECT

BUT

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May I Have Your Order Please??

Today is my first day of work. Its been 4 months I rotted at home besides college and those stuff =\...I'm working as waiter though.The title says it all...=)..The last time I worked as waiter was in 2007..

Things seem to be a little different though.I mean working as waiter is way different than working as promoter.Although you have to serve people in these two field,yet I think waiter is much better than promoter.No offense but I prefer to carry heavy load of food,mop the floor and taking orders.Working as promoter is not really bad though.But the things is that you have to deal with clothes and all those shit.Its kinda sissy!!..LOL

Well,all the staff are friendly so far I can say even the boss himself...LOL...No worries I'm always good in blending...=)...Ivan says I gotta chill out a little...not too serious cuz I look like I'm gonna whack someone up with my serious-ness....Come on boss,I'm just being myself...== I seriously look like a retard when I smile for no reason ==...I guess I have to deal with that or else I won't work for long =\

Operation Homecoming

Few hrs ago,I came across a site and I saw this historical drama.Its already on air on HBO.Sadly,I couldn't watch it.I watched the trailer though.This miniseries was inspired by an essay written by Lt. Col. Michael Strobl .

This drama tells us about Lt.Col.Michael Strobl who initially volunteered to escort the body of a fallen Marine,PFC Chance Phelps from Dover Air Force Base to Philadelphia,Minneapolis,Billings,Riverton and finally Dubois. PFC Chance Phelps was killed in action on April 9,2004 which is Good Friday.Phelps's unit was conducting a convoy escort when they came under heavy fire from insurgents.Although, Phelps was heavy wounded, he refused to leave his position and instead provided cover for his unit to evacuate.He sustained his fatal wound to the head

Most of you people don't give a fuck about this but I do. Yes damn right I'm not American or a soldier.But these fallen soldiers had given their life to protect the country,to stay behind enemy lines so you people could have good night sleep everyday!!A soldier like PFC Chance Phelps who died on Holy Day will not be forgotten

BECAUSE

PFC Chance Phelps is not a soldier,He is United States Marine Corps

Blink Blink

Exam is imminent and I'm here in front of computer,online-ing and blogging. I supposed to be studying now but what the fuck I have to study??There is nothing to study.A friend of mine gave me a list of vocabs.Am I suppose to memorize every single vocab??Oh come on, give me a break!!I expect notes like sentences or maybe points for me to elaborate!!Not vocabs!!Jeesss ==

Its been a month I entered college.Met a lot of friends and met 'someone' special who entered my life =)..Well,we're currently having our study break.Its gonna be over soon though and our final exam is on Thursday.Hopefully everything will be fine...LOL

Honestly,college is not cool!!I really miss high school especially friends and all 5A1 Farkerz.I wonder how are you guys doing lately??Fine I guess??lolx...Despite all the 'freedom' I have in college, I still miss those time I spent in high school.Every second I have in high school was worth it.

College is really pain in my ass!!Yes college gave me freedom.But too much freedom makes me bored at home.Well,that pain-in-my-ass-boring shit is gonna be over soon!!I'm taking up job..hehehe...I'm out of cash and I'm desperately need of money now!!Like I said,college life is really not my style.Besides all the assignment and all that shit in college,I have to spend plenty amount of cash.I don't even know what I'm spending on.Still I have to blend in or else I won't make it out alive.Anyway, I hope I won't get into any trouble.I'm trying to avoid trouble..finger crossed =)

???

AM I GONNA FALL AGAIN??

AM I GONNA FAIL???

?????????????????

Random Thoughts

Its been months and I already moved on

Leaving all the past behind

You know what I think??I think its better we could just keep our mouth shut!!even just a second or

something!!

I had a crush on you but I don't know how to tell you.You made a change in me.You fixed my heart back when all hopes seem lost.You made me smile.You made me feel better.You touched my heart.You stole my heart.

I fell for you in a month

SADLY.......

=/

The Thoughts in My Head

'A quiet life'

'Don't think too much yo!!'

'Are you ready to commit yourself into relationship??ASK YOURSELF THAT QUESTION!!'

'She is messing with you'

'WHAT YOU FROM ME??'

'Take sometime to chill out buddy!!'

'You gotta stay away from her,just for now,because you are vulnerable now'

'Spend some time with your buddies.You left them behind.Now go get them back'

*tears*

BUT MOST OF ALL!!

I need to be alone...let it go,for now

Who will take all this pain away?

Oh, tonight I'm feeling fine
I'm alone, just wasting time
No Friday movie nights
Or romantic candle lights

I'm just having conversations
With the thoughts in my head
All I hear are angels crying
Oh, won't they just sing instead
It would be wrong for me to say

I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries

I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Honestly, this won't do
How is she doing?
I tell myself I'm feeling swell
But I know I'm such a fool

I could take it as a new beginning
But you know I don't feel that way
Who will take all this pain away?
I know it's wrong for me to say
I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries

I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah

Talk about a sin
Was the day I walked into the other side
I would run back in
I wouldn't waste no time
I know it's wrong for me to say

I don't need that girl by my side
I don't need that girl in my life
I don't want to talk it out
Or hold her when she cries

I don't want to say she's my kind
I don't want to say that she's mine
I don't want to tell her that
I love her more than life
More than life, Yeah
Love her more than life
Yeah, yeah, yeah

This is what I'm feeling now

Feb 14

Vic says:tinee tunjuk jalan??

Tinee says:I can show you but its up to you whether you wanna walk

But the problem is.......

He had multiple wounds in his heart.Its painful but he pretend its ok.Now the wounds had turned into scars.Scars that reminds him of everything including Her!He is in bad shape but he knows nothing can stop him and he don't want to let people know about it.So he decided to put a mask on and walk away slowly.In these past few months,he was in serious pain.He couldn't sleep without tears rolling down from his eyes.A flash of pictures that reminds him of Her.He feels digusted and depressed.

He asks himself every night,'If she is not the one,why her pictures kept popping up from his mind?'

He is tired,depressed and damn right he is in pain.HE WAS STABBED MULTIPLE TIMES!!She killed him with words NOT weapons!!

He don't wanna run away but he can't take it.Its just too...painful for him to walk

Revo!!

The picture says it all!!=)

Broken??

I wanted you to know that I love the way you laugh

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away

I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away

Because I'm broken when I'm open

And I don't feel like I am strong enough

Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome

And I don't feel right when you're gone away

The worst is over now and we can breathe again

I wanna hold you high,you steal my pain away

There is so much left to learn and no one left to fight

I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

Cause I'm broken when I'm open

And I don't feel like I'm strong enough

Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome

And I don't feel right when you're gone away

Cause I'm broken when I'm open

And I don't feel like I'm strong enough

Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome

And I don't feel right when you're gone away

Sunshine

HELLO WORLD!!!Its 7.22 am!Yes I woke up early today for football..lol.Damn I'm so sleepy man.I wonder how many people will show up??Who gives a fuck?Just play the game yo!!

Well,I had a great time with Kenn yesterday at his place.He is teaching me guitar and YES!I'm learning guitar.I'm still working on the chords and everything.So far I know how to play G chords,the normal G LOL.I'm starting to feel the pain on my fingers which normal for novice like me.I will try get used to everything and hopefully I,Kenn and Tinee get to jam together and we gonna rock the house yo!!..LOL.Thanks Kenn,for all the lesson.Dinner is on me!!..ONLY YOU!!..xD

Anyway,I would like to wish Kenn and Barney good luck and all the best for Junior War 2 which is today and all the best for those who joined the battle.Please come back in one piece!!LOL

Status Report:

Mood-Moderate

Vic-2-Echo,out

Mad World

Who am I???Do I really exist???Why God brought me here??These are the questions I'm asking myself.I wonder whether you people ever ask yourself these questions.I was brought to this world since 1992.I seen alot of things happened.Good or bad I seen it all and not to mention,people with different background,attitude,race or even religion.

There is 6,814,200,000 people in this fuckin world.The population is still growing everyday.China and India was listed with the largest population compare to other country.I wonder how these people survive?

We,human are not the smartest species on earth.Rat stays on rank 1,dolphins falls on 2nd rank and the 3rd is human.But we seem smarter than them.WHY??We are not!!We are unique in a way.We are God's creation,same goes to these two smart animals.God made us His image.There is alot of facts running through my mind.We are so unique till we became cold.

Cold as in how?People may ask.Well,I'm talking about killing.Human had been killing each other since centuries.Armed or unarmed,we are able to kill each other.Human are no longer surprise by the term 'killing'.Violence is starting to blend into our daily routine because human are the one who started it.Why are we killing each other??Why it never stop??

There is good people in this world and for sure there is evil too.If you dare to tell me there is only GOOD people in this world,you better be ready to kiss my fist because I'm not good as you thought I would be.IF there is only good people in this world,there won't be crime or even war.We won't be turning on each other.Sometimes I wonder what if there is species above us in the food chain and they lost total respect for us??Are they gonna start killing us wholesale?Or they gonna just blend into our society??

Sometimes I really asked myself what if I'm Eric Harris or maybe Seng Hui Cho??How is it like to kill someone with your own hand??How does it feels to get your both hands dirty??OK!!Seriously,I'm losing my mind slowly.I don't want to be copped out as a psycho.The truth is,all these are just a facts that I pictured before and dreamed about it.Some are nightmares but I'm not afraid of all these because the word 'fear' never blend in me.I'm not saying I'm a hero or what.I'm still mortal like everyone else.I just want let everyone know that we living in a mad world.A world filled with violence and chaos.

p.s-All these are just my thoughts.I'm not gonna kill someone or hurt anybody.=)

April 11

Time flies,right people??=)....We are getting older and things started to change.Damn!!I never thought of that.I still remember when I was still a kid...young,naive and hell yeah troublemaker..=).That's the thing that I keep flashing back.April 11,the day I was born and brought to this world and today is my birthday...=D

Well,I went out with Albert yesterday to PC Fair at Pisa and YEAH!!I have to fetch that asshole!!..=D.DAMN!!that place was packed with people.I nearly suffocate because I'm breathing carbon dioxide and NOT oxygen.I really hate people stop and stare at the middle,blocking the way and I bet they are staring at the chicks...==.Everything was fuckin cheap.Too bad I didn't bring enough cash or else I will sapu everything.

After that,we hit the road and went down to gurney for movie.We watched Clash of the Titans and it was AWESOME.You get to see the 12 Olympians.I mean not all twelve and yeah,you get to see how Perseus killed Medusa.Just go watch la!!I ain't gonna explain eveything..=D.After the movie,me and Albert split up and I meet up with my sister and her boyfriend.We went Seoul Garden for dinner.Her boyfriend belanja..xDxD..after dinner,went to friend's place and I had few drinks.I drank 2 and a half bottle of Heineken.I don't wanna drink much because I'm driving alone and I don't wanna get caught.

Well,I don't know what I'm gonna do later.Probably just sit at home.I don't really celebrate my birthday.Anyway,thanks Tinee,Eugene,Barney,Samantha and Sheryl for wishing and another BIG THANKS TO EUGENE for that jersey man.I love it although its XL...dude,I'm not as big as you..=D..thanks alot!!..xD

Vic-2-Echo out

I Hate Everything About You

Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet

Every roommate kept awake
By every sigh and scream we make
All the feelings that I get
But I still don't miss you yet

Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

Every time we lie awake
After every hit we take
Every feeling that I get
But I haven't missed you yet

Only when I stop to think about it

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

Only when I stop to think
About you, I know
Only when you stop to think
About me, do you know

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you
You hate everything all about me
Why do you love me

I hate
You hate
I hate
You love me

I hate everything about you
Why do I love you

Well,its a song from Three Days Grace.It reminds me alot of things especially Kenn's condition and yeahh...mine too.YES!!I'm avoiding her.I'm doing this because its painful everytime I talked to her.I really wish I had amnesia right now!!

A Beautiful Sunday

Its Easter Sunday,the day Jesus was resurrected from the dead on the third day of his crucifixion.Most Christians celebrate Easter Sunday two days after Good Friday.Why Jesus died??HE died to save us!!!Although I'm not Christian but I believed!!=)..Most people don't understand Jesus.To actually understand HIM,we need to understand his death

So,Barney's church was having this drama at Equatorial Hotel today.The drama was called Freedom if I'm not wrong.Well,I used to be literature student and we are used to all these drama shit...drama here drama there....as if 5A1 good in acting[actually we are GOOD in acting..xD].Ok cut the crap!!I went there with mom[Tinee],dad[Barney] and my two soul brothers Ah Hong[Eugene] and Ah Keong[Kenn]...xDxD.Guess what??Tinee was late!!She was like so guilty xD and her car was low on fuel.SO!!we decided to hit the filling station first before picking up Barney..ok I'm gonna forward this part....*forwards*...xDxD

We arrived at the hotel in one piece!!because I was driving...xDxD BUT! I didn't ask to drive..it was mom's idea!!!Then we hit the ballroom minutes before drama starts.The drama wasn't that bad actually!!It reminds me something and someone..xDxD...after the drama,5 of us went Queens for lunch and we were talking about all these jokes we used to crap in class!!It still funny though.It reminds me of high school and im not talking about the school you BIATCH!!IM TALKING ABOUT THE FUN I HAD WITH ALL MY BUDDIES IN SCHOOL!!!

After lunch and all that stuff,we went to this Moral Uplifting Center or whatever you guys called it!!Dropped Kenn to meet his friend awhile.Then 5 of us hit the road again to Eugene's house for a rest!!Well,it wasn't a good rest for me because of all these fuckin calls keep ringing me up!!Around 8 something,we went out again for dinner .AGAIN!!!WE WENT CRAZY IN THE CAR WITH ALL THE JOKES!!HAHA!!Well,its fun though.So yeah we had an awesome day!!xD..One last thing!!THANKS TINEE FOR THAT SALAD YOU MADE FOR US!!!IT TASTES SOOOO GOOOD,I HAVE TO SAY IT TWICE!!!xDxD...and and and YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME!!..XP...Time to hit the bed!!My brain is shutting down soon!!..xD

You Are Not Alone =)

Its been awhile I didn't really chat with Kenn...its nice to talk to him again yesterday +)...Hzzz,things didn't turn pretty well for him though...I guess we are on same boat,rite buddy??I'm really sorry to hear that...She will fuckin regret man!!...Its sad to see a friend got cheated by his girlfriend...I know there is nothing fair in this world...but come on!!HE IS NICE GUY!!!and not to mention,a good boyfriend too!!!I bet Kenn is way better than that wanker!!!Seriously,I thought 'A' was nice girl...but I was wrong!!Its ok man!!its not easy to walk out from someone...take your time..I got your back man!!You are not alone!!=)...What goes around comes around!!xD

Vic-2-Echo out

=)

Sometimes I just wish I could go to sleep and never wake up =).This doesn't exactly mean I wanna end my precious life.Don't worry people,I'm not that dumb =).Its just so comfortable,peaceful and I don't have to worry about anything.Its like another world...and I can actually do what I want there.Its like a perfect getaway from all the pressure and pain..be totally oblivion from everyone else.Isn't it nice??=)

Tears From The Pain

The word 'Love' is a four letter word, spelled 'PAIN'.Love can be persistent IF you don't give up.Pain is just a weakness leaving our body.Sometimes we wondered why we have go through pain just to love someone??Well,love means letting yourself being deeply hurt by someone you loved.Pain is just part of the happiness =).We have to face it no matter what.But sometimes,the pain is just too much and we can't help it.That happens when you know you can't be with that person.It hurts so much!!Some people just pretend its okay,they smiled all the way but deep inside......they are dying.It takes only 60 seconds to get a crush on someone,an hour to appreciate someone and 24 hrs to love someone but it takes a fuckin lifetime to walk out from someone and sometimes we just can't get over with that person.It will stuck in our fuckin mind forever.That is even painful.We might even cry every night before we sleep.Its even worse when that person you love treat you as their best friends.We can't run away from pain.We have to face it.

Anger,Hatred and Pain

I'm not really sure whether I'm doing the right thing.I know clearly I'm taking the risk.I'm telling myself that I should let this friendship go,I should forget about you.But there is something holding me back real hard!!Friends adviced me to let it go and some even said I should forgive you.I know everyone deserves a second chance but the pain is just too REAL.I'm trying to get my mind right now.You were right about one thing.I don't know shit about love.Anger and hatred clouded my mind.I felt that I'm the one who caused all these problems in your life.I wasn't there for you when you needed me.But I never regret when we were in relationship.I love you more than anyone else.I won't let our relationship slip away if it wasn't my dad.I'm sorry I broke your fragile heart.The reason I'm asking you to let this friendship go is because I felt DIGUSTED for the things I done to you.I'm sorry.It's not your fault

Last Minute Shopping

I usually did my shopping one or two week before chinese new year.This is year totally different.I have to do last minute shopping because of FUCKIN WORK!! I don't have the TIME!!!..ain't that a bitch,huh??Well,nvm screw it!Came back home yesterday around 6 something,straight to queens with my stinky body to get a brand new shoe.Yes,its expensive but I have no choice.I really need a new pair of shoe!!Hopefully i won't regret??I think i won't..xDxD

Victor-2-Echo out

F.N.B[Fuckin New Blogger]

Alright people,this is my first time blogging.There is alot of shit in my mind now.Alot of things happened recently,good and bad..xD..First of all,im not good in blogging and certainly i'm not used to it yet.Come on guys,give me a break im just FNB...xD..Well i try my best to BLOG next time i sign in!!..xDxD

Victor-2-Echo out